You are still inside me

You were there in a deep sleep

As if you had forgotten to breathe

Eyes half shut, half opened

I went near and looked

Your mouth was open

As if you were going to speak.

I was expecting that you would call my name

Once again we would play that ludo game

I am ready to let you win

Because I love your face with grin


Suddenly, everyone surrounded you

Flowers and garlands mounted you

Some people carried your bed

Wrapping you with a white garment


I was still expecting

You were just acting,

The way you used to tease me before

With the sound of your snore


This time, you didn't wake up

Rather people started to make up

The woods for your pyre

To burn you in the fire


I was still there in front of you

Thinking that the fire would hurt you

But everyone was busy in the mob

And my feelings rolled down through the sob


When the fire started engulfing

You’re each body parts turn by turn

My heart started scratching

Searching for your soul on and on


I searched you in the river

Flowing beside you

I searched you in the smoke

Hovering just above you


Finally when you turned completely in to ashes

I found you in the laces,

Of my heart

Where sweet memories entangled


You are still inside me

Completely with me

All the time,

Now no tensions, no work loads

You are completely free

Deep inside within me

By
Bhawana Shrestha
Country: Nepal